Friday, June 6, 2008

Dazed and Confused

Oh Drat, and Bother, as my favorite silly ole' bear would say... I've entered the twilight zone of the mind on the heels of a bladder infection.

I remember during my "spells" last summer (when new symptoms would hit), that I kind of "lost my mind" (was it ever really mine?? :-) ) I would head out on errands, and forget where I was going, or lose my way on a familiar drive. I would wander drunkenly around stores, staring at the shelves in wonder and confusion. Sensory overload would hit me hard in the presence of more than one color, sound, or fellow human being.

I started only going on errands when I had my kids to be my "brains" for me. They all thought that it was hilarious. Uh, not so much.

I made the mistake this morning of going to Wal-Mart (my very least favorite store, for another post) to get some carpet shampoo (shouldn't have bought the darn carpet cleaner there in the first place... it's the only place I can get shampoo that works right which means that I actually have to go BACK! Argh). Anyhoo, to make a long story short too late, I left Wal-Mart 2 hours later, dazed and confused. I did eventually wander across the vacuum cleaners, and actually remembered to get my carpet shampoo.

I think that most everything else in the store went home with me, too...

It's an awful feeling, knowing that somewhere in the recent storage boxes of my mind, I have had a thought, but just can't find it. I wanted to just stand in the middle of the store and cry for my Mommy. I felt so lost, so overwhelmed, so drunk without the fun.

Is it just me, or do any of you have mind-less moments??

I would be more concerned if I wasn't getting a flare up of bowel, bladder, leg pain, breathing pain, and fatigue with this silly bladder infection. I would be worried about manic depression...

But it all fits. As much as MS fits any patterns.

Silly me. I was thinking to myself the other day "I'm so glad that my bladder has gotten better. No spasms, no accidents, no running to the bathroom all shift/all night." Then I realized (too late) that I was going 10 hours at a time with no bladder signals *at all*. And getting overflow. And getting lower back pain and fever.

It never rains but it pours!!

6 comments:

BRAINCHEESE said...

Oh, my dear! So very sorry to hear you are going through these symptoms...the ONLY good news is, they ARE probably triggered by the UTI. If that's ANY consolation at all...rest up, my friend. And be well(er).

Linda D. in Seattle

Carolyn said...

I'm so sorry for your troubles. If it helps, I'm dazed and confused all the time, but I have no good reasons to explain it. I'm just a big dumb-dumb!!

Diane J Standiford said...

Bladders. WHAT was God thinking? I hope heaven has plenty of toilets.
(Dirt Devil brand carpet cleaner best thing I ever bought*/for small areas though.) *next to a toilet. Get well.

Bear Naked said...

Oh how sorry I am for your feeling so bad.
Rest assured that you can ALWAYS say what you want here on your blog and we will all understand.
Bear hugs to you. ((( )))

Denver Refashionista said...

Yes. The sensory overload happens to me when I am sick or fatigued. I also sometimes find myself driving who the hell knows where. The other day it took me about 30 minutes to make a 15 minute drive because I forgot to turn somewhere and got lost in BFE. I was so frustrated and I try not to get that way.

CrazyCath said...

Heu! Shawna - it is sooo long since I have been over and for that I apologise. Humbly.

Looks like you have been having a runaround recently health wise. I hope you are on the mend. I have had those memory misses too. It is horrible. Funny to look back on, but frustrating at the time.
(And I use that phrase about raining and pouring too!)